Indeed, having children is a wonderful blessing.
Yet, for one Malaysian, it was an unfortunate scenario that she miscarried when she was 12 weeks pregnant.
Story time. My baby went up to Heaven at 12w but were sure that he/she was a clingy one.
— Nurin (@Nuyenggg) March 21, 2023
20 mins before the baby came out (unexpected), my husband went out to buy lunch. He kissed me & told me the whole time that I smelled weird. The smell even followed him & lekat on the car https://t.co/RXJMUDBv6i
On Twitter, Nurin shared her experience of losing her child and how her husband's experienced the final goodbye.
Just about 20 minutes before she unexpectedly gave birth, her husband went out to buy them lunch.
But before that, her husband had sensed an odd odour in the air, and it had even followed him to the point where he could smell it inside the car.
It was then when she delivered the baby and she texted her husband to come home.
I was still in pain, in shock and everything during that time so I just oh-ed him. The moment I stepped into the car to go to the hospital, boyyyysatu kereta bau the babys smell Kuat sangat-sangat.
— Nurin (@Nuyenggg) March 21, 2023
My husband take it as the baby giving hint & saying final goodbye to him
When he arrived back, he confirmed that the odour was the same as what he had smelled coming from the car and that it had been stronger ever since the baby had been delivered.
He also recounted how, when out getting lunch, he felt like he was being followed.
Nurin, on the other hand, was still in pain and so startled by the situation that the little information about it barely even registered in her head.
The smell didn't hit her until she got in the car to go to the hospital, at which point she realised what her husband had been trying to tell her the entire time.
Her husband interpreted it as a divine sign and speculated that it may be the baby's way of saying its last goodbye to him.
Done cerita for the day.
— Nurin (@Nuyenggg) March 21, 2023
1-3 before the day & after doctors declared theres no heartbeat, I couldnt sleep at night bc of contractions.
Tiap malam I stay-up tahan sakit, ada kotak jatuh, bunyi Macbook charge sendiri, sudu ketuk gelas, gumpal plastik. Like a kid was playing
A few days prior, the doctors reported that there was no heartbeat and since then, she was unable to get any sleep at night due to contractions.
She has heard things fall, her Macbook charging on its own, a spoon tinkling on a glass sound, and other noises that seemed to be kids playing.
Her sister speculates that it may be because the baby's spirit has passed away but the body is still inside of her; perhaps this is why it is still lingering around.
She has the impression that the kid is playing with her at home. She counters that no one except Allah would be able to know the truth and they can only assume that that was the truth.
Done with during & before punya story.
— Nurin (@Nuyenggg) March 21, 2023
Lastly, few days after the baby was gone. I dreamt of walking into a huge & spacious house, everything is in White.
I walked to a lil girl playing alone with toys on floor, wearing Pink dress with two Pokok Kelapa hairdo
Nurin had a dream about entering a huge, spacious white house where she saw a young girl playing alone on the floor with her toys a few days after the baby had gone.
She had two "coconut tree" pigtails and a pink dress on. She couldn't make out the kid's face, but when she finally stopped in front of her and turned to face her, she disclosed that the girl had Down syndrome.
She went on to describe how she was in excruciating pain and had a risky pregnancy in which she was bleeding nonstop for weeks at a time.
It went from Suspected Ectopic, Threatened Miscarriage, Missed Miscarriage then Complete Miscarriage.
When youre in pain & tengah heartbreak doctor cakap the babys chance was 50-50, youll ask Allah 24/7
— Nurin (@Nuyenggg) March 21, 2023
WHY?
WHY ME?
This is my first baby, WHY SHOULD IT BE MY BABY?
So I andaikan mimpi I jumpa dia tu, maybe itulah jawapan & pujukan dari Allah, yang baby tu tak sihat
She added that she continued questioning God why this had to happen to her and how it was her first child after learning that the baby had a 50/50 chance of surviving from the doctor.
As a result, she connected the dots and assumed that the dream she had about the young girl was a way for her baby to comfort her and that God was responding to her prayers by letting her know how her kid wasn't doing well.
It has been 3 months since the loss.
— Nurin (@Nuyenggg) March 21, 2023
Babies know how to hold a special spot in heart.
We still spent hours of deep talk while crying & shedding tears together. It still hurts a lot for us. Were still devastated.
Weve accepted that grief isnt linear, its a lifetime process. pic.twitter.com/gVXKnlKsLE
It has been three months following her miscarriage, and she and her husband still talk about it and mourn their loss.
No matter the situation, Nurin makes an effort to remain optimistic and hopes that everyone would pray for her to have a healthy kid the next time she gets blessed.
